hello.
Posted on: Monday, May 2 @ 7:33 PM
Yosu!!~Herro.
Wow. i havent blogged since... the 12th? wow. okay.
Well, i guess i want to start blogging again. v blogging would be easier but.. uploading takes a while and i dont want ot have to go through it. so yer. i want to change skins. lol. It looks sah emo. Dx but i remember all the effort i put into setting everything up. zomg. sigh. yeah.. my life isnt that interesting. lol. i noticed that i blogstalk and facebookstalk a lot. xDD talking about facebook. xDD I'm losing friends. xDD yerr. like i unintentionally looked at my friends one day. it said 523. and then the next day i looked it said 519. im like.. okay. o.O lol. Music. Thank you Lewis for introducing me to Jessie J. I was always looking for who the artist of Pricetag was. like aerlgaerg. I have a massive heache.
someone made me think today, if i were to die today, would i be satisfied with what i have contributed to this world, in this life?
Honestly, no.
What have i done in this world? wow. HEADING TO EMO. zomgzomg stop.
I'm sorry Bee. I'm sorry Mitchell.
mmkay. So much i think about.
Things that made me .. hmm..
Bee said, You should stop saying what your mind thinks.
Mitch: why dont you fan over iu.
Both, This is what makes me, me. If i change this, does it not mean that i am changing to what i dont want ot be?
The other day, again. even though i shouldnt be, even though i feel that i've moved on, even though i feel differently now; i thought of danielle.
sigh. why?
Thought, do i matter in her life? Do I mean anything anymore? I wonder what she tihngs of me now. I wonder if she ever thinks about me. gah. Stupid brain. Fk. T^T Why?
Happy One Month and One Day.
Jed. xDD
David said i love a lot.
Maybe i do. If he hasnt noticed. If nobody has noticed, I love a lot of people. I love my friends like. I would do so much for them. Yes, I'm an affectionate person. I can be. I dont have to be. lol. xDD wow. going sadface this is poo. Dad doesnt want me to go see a counceller. bro, dont you know i NEED one? i dont just want one. sigh. xDD Poooo. stop reading. stop typing. gahhh. i broke down in front of my dad. Cried till my eyes were swollen. i really want someone close. But i dont want someone close and i end up falling for them. gah. i need a friend. i need daniel park. i need chino wood. i need brandan ho. i need cynan tomsen. i need so many people.
the other day, i was thinking to myself. wow. it's scary. that a lot of times in my life, i've wanted to just live in my room. like my parents just give me food and i live in my room. like toilet outside and all but like no internet no comp no ipod no music. just bed in a room.
Gab's made our family sick.
Sa's sick my dad's sick. dad's raged at sa cos gab still stayed her dispite the fact that he knew he was sick and he would spread it to us. sigh
heard my voice on a vid yesterday.. it's annoying. wow. i waslike wtpoo. people have to listen to that. that's ... how do you manage. gosh.
I'd like to think that 'im over danielle. this is shit. seriously.
I'm a pooface.
sigh. brain hurts.
I sit here waiting to talk to someone. You know what i want? a person who knows me. like wouldnt yo want a friend who knows you so well, they know everything aobut you? like gah. i want a friend who knows me extremely well. sigh. i am in search for one. lol. telling people who read. that I have an inferior complex. xDD i tihnk everyone has it to some degree.
sigh. i guess, i want someone like me? i want to have a sleep over with a guy.. and so he doesnt feel liek i'm gay or something. and doesnt think that the concept is gay. Cant for walter and tuan. dp mum doesnt let. snow, you're a bit old and i would like to do it with you, but bro my parents would think i'm gay. lol i can only do it with cynan, but yet again, goes to grammar. sigh.
I miss pup.
So here i am. feeling lonely. hello. doubt anyone reads. lol.. xDD yay wee I'm a hobo. lol rawr grawrrr.
I want to hug someone. I want someone to hug me. Weeee. wow. This is a bad feelings. xDD someone hug me. please? I really really want a hug. (: Sokay. I'll do what carol told me to do, curl up into a ball and hug yourself. You're hugging your knees. xDD But that's what really what i want. I dont want to hug someone. I want someone to hug me. lol weee. this is stupid.
mmkay.
I shall go.
Byeops.
imissyou.