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Posted on: Saturday, March 12 @ 12:17 AM
Yosu!!~Herro.
Well, a lot of things have happened. And a lot of things happened because of something., but to start of, I'm going to talk about primary school.
Remember in primary school, for those who went to my primary school, there was a tree in the junior play ground that had a bench around it that you could sit at. Well, i remember our teacher in grade 1 would say, if ever you didnt have anyone to play with, you can sit there and someone will see you there and come play with you.
and back then, if you did sit there, people would come to play with you, and disregard that you were alone. They wouldnt tease you and call you a loner.
Today, a friend of mine, was talking about her primary school. she was like, there wasnt really a detention. What would happen was if you did something wrong, they'ed give you a piece of paper and ask you to scribble on it and express how you felt, with a crayon. she thought this was stupid. i agreed. but really inside, i thought it was the greatest idea. it's so smart. scribbling on a piece of paper, how you felt. then they could have assesed your feelings. anger, sadness, loneliness, exclusion, marginalised.
Which comes down to this. I remember a few weeks ago, i was down, and my sister said to me,
"Adrian, I dont know how you're feeling right now. And I cant really say i can relate, but all i can say is this. You remember my High schooling years. They werent the best, I know. But if i had learnt anything, i had learnt that you cant always rely on your friends to be happy. Sure your friends can bring a lot of happiness to you, but in the end, you're in charge of your own happiness. Just think about it. you have happy memories. You have had happy moments. So if you have friends, that's great. If you dont, still be happy. Dont let your friends pull you down and make you unhappy. Make yourself happy. Dont rely on your friends. Learn that now. So you dont have to learn it the hard way. Like i did."
I love my sister. I love my friends.
But just a few moments ago. Maybe it was something i shouldnt have read or saw. I'm sorry.
Now. Even though I'm afraid you'll see this. <,,<
I'm afraid that my feelings will never let go.
I shall go.
Byeops.
imissyou.