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Posted on: Thursday, September 16 @ 4:47 PM
Yosu!!~
Hey guys.
I'm so blind. I didn't even notice. You were always there for me. And I abused it. Why did I let my self become like this. How did i let myself become like this. I didn't mean to do this. I'm so sorry. But I'll make it up to you. Both of you.
When it died, I pushed her away. I got closer to you. I told you everything. I knew that we were close, bother-sister close. Thank-you for being there. We talked. We shared. You listened to me as I rambled on. I'm so sorry that you had to go through all that.
When it came back to life, she was scared what we had was going to kill it again. Like I was poison. But it wasnt. You helped me. You helped me think through it clearer. To understand things, I, as a guy wouldnt see. But because she didnt like what we had she didnt like you. And this is when i made the mistake.
I started to push you away.
I tried to make it so we wouldnt have anything. I've succeeded. I didnt mean to hurt you. Both of you. I called you names. I made you feel bad. I'm sorry. I didnt mean to hurt you this bad. I didnt mean to hurt you.
You started to hate your best friend, because I was close to her. I didnt mean for this to happen. But today I assume that you and her made up. You two shouldnt let me get between your friendship.
One of the reasons I was mean to you, because I felt that I wasnt needed. You had him. Business. You would talk to him. Be with him. I didnt feel like I fit in your picture. Someone else likes him. He's always sitting with you. You know I dont like him. The looks he gives me. I smile and wave at him. What does he do? He looks at me, and continues to walk. When we first met, I could tell what type of personality he had. The type that makes you feel like you're less than him. Not you. But me. He'd boast about the stuff he has. Everything. Like he's trying to impress you. But then, he'd joke and be like I cant afford it. I'm not rich. Ha ha. After he's gone on about where he lives. what he owns. I don't like it. I tried to be nice to him and he just brushed me off. Until now, I still try to be nice to him.
But you became close to him. You'd be with him. Like I was of no use. So I backed off, and eventually, I became this person. I hate me. I want to change. I'm sorry. To you and her. To him, I want to make things right.
Like how I want to befriend Mitchell. I'm sorry Mitchell, for making bad impressions of you. and to you.
I'm sorry you, personally. I will talk to you. I will make things right again. I will stop being like this. I'm sorry. I didnt meant to hurt so many people. I'm so sorry. I hope I can make things right again.
Please, let me talk to you. I want to return to the brother you once had. I'm sorry I turned out this way.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry I was mean to you. I'm sorry I called you names. I didnt meanto hurt you. I want to be the one who supports you when you fall down again. I'm sorry I acted like this to you.
I love you. In a brotherly way.
I'm sorry for causing you so much pain. Thank-you for saying it. If not I wouldn't have known. Well, I would in some aspects but I wouldnt understand. I'm sorry.
HunnYeah. I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm so fustrated all the time. I take it out on everyone else. I should be taking it out on myself. I'm sorry I caused so much pain to everyone. I wish I could take all the pain I've caused from everyone. I love you.
Tuan. I'm sorry for making you fustrated at me. At PmN. I'm sorry that we ended up like this. I'm sorry I've made you support while i wasnt there. Because I'm not in the classes you and her have, you've had to go through it. Thanks for being there when I wasnt at my best.
Walter. I'm sorry for making your life miserable. I wish that I didnt make you feel crap. I am so sorry for making you go through that. You're a big man in a small body. I remember. I look up to you.
Simmon. I'm sorry for your losses. I'm sorry, I was one of the causes, once. I need you to be strong. Not that you arent already. I love you how you can maintain a smile on your face. I look up to you.
Dotter. I love you. I miss you. And I'm sorry for getting agro at you. I love your wise advice. I like it how we constantly support each other. I'm sorry for the time i was so mean to you. When I rejected your help. I'm sorry for making you angry.
I hope I can make it up to all of you. Rebuild the friendship. The family. The relationship. Me.
To you, I am sincerely sorry.